Optimism is key.

Marie Angeline Robertson (If you click on my name it'll link you to my FB.)
Fifteen years old. Born and raised in Brooklyn, NY. Puerto Rican, Irish, and Scottish. Frank Ocean is the man. I am a die hard Jets fan, no question about it.

365 Day Challenge
Day 139: Something you can't wait for.
December 28, 2011

My iPhone 4S which is coming in the mail! :D

Day 138: One of the nicest things anyone has said to you.
December 27, 2011

I just went through screen munches from my OLD blackberry and these are the ones that made me feel some type of way. It's more than one but idc.
"Omg, every time I'm away from you for like 30 mins I start to miss you." - Eli
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"I envy you, Marie. You're such a people person. So outgoing and funny and happy. Always optimistic and hyper and bubbly. I wish I could be like that. I'm so shy around new people. I hate people sometimes. I always think people secretly talk and make fun of me when I'm not around." - Melissa
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Me: If I was to say I was running away would you let me stay with you for a day or two?
Nicolle: Of course! I'll go with you to the moon if you asked me.
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Me: They're just good to have so that when I don't feel pretty, I could just look back at those pictures and feel better.
Jason: U don't need to look at anything or have someone tell u ur pretty ur not ur gorgeous so stfu and take thatpic ff plz
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"You're mine." - Jason
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Me: You should come with me to PA :(
Jason: I would love to! And sleep with u! Not sexually like wanna feel the warmth of ur body next to u and hug u the whole night :$

Day 137: One of your wildest dreams.
December 26, 2011 (Late: 1227)

To fall in love.

Day 136: If you were twelve and looked at yourself now, would you be happy?
December 25, 2011 (Late: 1227)

I'd be a little dissapointed at the things I've done but, for the most part I'd be ecstatic.

Day 135: Is change a good thing?
December 24, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Depends what's being changed.

Day 134: Do you have a reason to smile right now?
December 23, 2011 (Late: 1227)

I'm breathing aren't I?

Day 133: If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret, which would you choose?
December 22, 2011 (Late: 1227)

A million dollars. I learned from my regret.

Day 132: Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
December 21, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Of course! I'm best friends with my exboyfriend.

Day 131: What do you worry about?
December 20, 2011 (Late: 1227)

My family and friends.

Day 130: If you were deserted on an island, what would you bring?
December 19, 2011 (Late: 1227)

I'd bring my house, a doctor, my puppy, my family & friends, supermarkets, electricity, a stereo, wi-fi, etc etc etc :P

Day 129: What's your favorite month? Why
December 18, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Definitely June because it's the month before summer vacation so you and your friends are so excited & planning what you wana do. It's just the best.

Day 128: what is your purpose in life?
December 17, 2011 (Late: 1227)

To make someone else happy.

Day 127: Do you believe in second chances?
December 16, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Depends on what they did to destroy the first one.

Day 126: Have you ever been betrayed by someone you trusted?
December 15, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Yes.

Day 125: Have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy?
December 14, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Everyday.

Day 124: Have you ever had feelings for someone who was seeing someone else?
December 13, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Saddly.

Day 123: Do you believe teenagers can fall in love?
December 12, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Absolutely.

Day 122: Which activities make you lose track of time?
December 11, 2011 (Late: 1227)

Reading, writing, sleeping, and Tumblr.

Day 121: what do you think about stereotypes?
December 10, 2011 (Late: 1227)

I think they're stupid.

Day 120: What is your zodiac sign? What do you think it means?
December 9, 2011 (Late: 1227)

I am a Virgo and I think it means that I was born between August 23 and September 22.

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Day 96: What do you love the most about your grandparents?
November 15, 2011

I don’t know. They’re all dead.

Day 95: Describe the weather right now.
November 14, 2011

It’s 10:53pm and according to the Weather App. on my phone it’s a high of 61 and a low of 54 with 30% precipitation.

Day 94: Do you keep your thoughts to yourself?
November 13, 2011

Depends on what they are, who they’re about, and who I’m with at the time. But, not really. If I have something to say; I’ll usually say it.

Day 93: What about the opposite sex can you not understand?
November 12, 2011

Why they act the way they do. Most of them are just horny assholes who will say anything to get into a females pants. They have no boundaries or respect for the opposite sex and I’m not saying all boys are like that. Only the ones I’ve ever come across.

Day 92: What have you learned just from attending your school?
November 11, 2011

…This is a vague question

Day 91: Name a book you read in school that wasn’t entirely awful.
November 10, 2011

I honestly don’t remember. I love reading but, the books I’ve read in school were all horrible.

Day 90: Write a letter to one of your close friends.
November 9, 2011

Dear close friend,
If you’re my close friend – I trust and love you dearly.
Love, Marie Angeline

Day 89: Are you self aware?
November 8, 2011

… I don’t know what you mean.

Day 88: Does money equal happiness?
November 7, 2011

I don’t care what anyone says, I do believe that money is equivalent to happiness to some extent. I understand that money doesn’t give you love and blah blah but, that solves A LOT of problems. A huge part of why married couples fight is due to money, especially in this economy.
Another reason? If everyone had the same amount of money and there was no social system everyone would be living equally. I personally believe that there would be WAY less crime since everyone could just afford whatever they wanted. I mean, don’t get me wrong - money isn’t everything but I sure as hell would rather cry in my Rolls Royce than my Altima.

Day 87: What are your views upon sex before marriage?
November 6, 2011

Go for it. I personally want to wait until I’m in a serious relationship and make sure that I love the male I’m giving my virginity to but, some girls just want to get it over with and that’s on them.

Day 86: What is the difference between living and existing?
November 5, 2011

When you’re alive you are doing everything you possibly can do before you die. You enable yourself to feel every kind of emotion you possibly can. Do everything you want to do, say everything you want to say (without being rude), and just having fun! Taking whatever gets thrown at you durring your stay on planet earth and making a lesson out of it. Not regretting, partying, loving, having FUN and not sitting home crying because your boyfriend of two weeks broke up with you. LIVE. Lmao.
When you exist you are just there. Imagine a playground with a tree in the middle of it and children are playing all around it. You are the tree. Your present physically but, not mentally or emotionally.

Day 85: If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
November 4, 2011

To stop being ignorant, racist, sexist, homophobic bastards - Live and let live.

Day 84: Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?
November 3, 2011

What the hell? Crying is not a sign of weakness nor strength, it’s a way of expressing yourself. To me, crying is a form of relief and finally realizing something was bothering you. When you cry you acknowledge what has been bothering you and you do something about it. You release all of that negative energy. That’s why you’re always tired after crying.

Day 83: If you had to teach something, what would you teach?
November 2, 2011

That’s an awfully vague question, lol. If I had to teach a subject it would be English Literature or beginners Spanish/Italian. If I had to teach something in general it’d definitely be a life lesson. Something sentimental and valuable.

Day 82: Would you break the law to save a loved one?
November 1, 2011

Depends on which loved one, what law, and why I would have to break it. For example, if my older brother was in jail for murdering his wife my answer would be “Fuck outa here.”

Day 81: What is your biggest fear?
October 31, 2011

I don’t know exactly but, I despise being lonely. That feeling could eat me alive. (Their is a difference between being lonely and alone.)

Day 80: One of your favorite childhood memories.
October 30, 2011

It was about two to three weeks before my grandpa passed away; I was two. I distinctively remember sitting on his lap, while he was in his rocking chair talking to him about play dough, lmao. He would chuckle and say how he’d personally tell Santa Clause to bring me some. I remember giving him a huge hug and then he’d give me a big bowl of lemon drops. I sat on his lap and ate them while he read the news paper.. I miss you, grandpa.

Day 79: Why do you feel as though people judge others?
October 29, 2011

I feel that people judge others out of their own insecurities or jealousy towards them. Sometimes people judge others because of their own fashion sense or personality. Everyone is D I F F E R E N T ! ! The sooner that the world realizes and accepts that, we’d have some peace.

Day 78: Would you rather people be honest with you, even if it’s something not good or lie to you to make you feel good?
October 28, 2011

Honesty is the best policy. Lieing is THE worse thing you could do to me.

Day 77: What gives you everyday inspiration?
October 27, 2011

Life and Music.

Day 76: How do you feel about going green?
October 26, 2011

Depends on how green we’re talking about. I’m flushing my toilet after I use it, I’m not letting that sit. But, I will recycle. I do recycle, actually.

Day 75: Write about one of the best dreams you’ve ever had.
October 25, 2011

I don’t remember my dreams! If I remember one of my positive dreams, I’ll be sure to fill this in with the date.

Day 74: How would you describe your style of clothing?
October 24, 2011

Comfortable and my own, I don’t follow trends or what’s “in.” I wear what I think is cute and that’s that.

Day 73: A movie you cried during.
October 23, 2011

Titanic, A Walk To Remember, and Old Yeller are the only movies I can think of off the top of my head. I also am aware that most females cried like babies during the Notebook but, honestly, I didn’t cry. It was touching but, I didn’t find it as sad as they did.

Day 72: List everything you ate today.
October 22, 2011

This morning I skipped breakfast so, for lunch I ate a slice of pizza and a Halloween donut from Dunkin Donuts since it was my friend’s birthday. Then, for dinner (around seven) I had rice and beans. Nothing exciting, lol.

Day 71: Name some differences between you and your best friend.
October 21, 2011

Melissa is a very impatient, I am patient. She’s more forgiving than I am. She’s very comfortable with talking to males; as in she doesn’t necessarily have a fear. While I, on the other hand, don’t enjoy it as much. I like being single and having full control over my emotions. I’m way more outgoing than she is but, she’s more playful than I am.

Day 70: Name a singer whom you don’t necessarily enjoy, and why.
October 20, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I’m not crazy about Bruno Mars and no, it has absolutely NOTHING to do with Tyler, the Creator. I just don’t like that lovey-dovey crap he sings about. I appreciate the message he sends out but, I don’t like the way he portrays or expresses it.

Day 69: Powerful song lyrics you love.
October 19, 2011 (Late: 1020)

It really depends on what kind of mood I’m in. :\ I guess you could say I listen to all kinds of music except techno. I despise techno. -_-

Day 68: The best concert you have been to.
October 18, 2011 (Late: 1020)

Hilary Duff back in 2005.

Day 67: How did you find out about tumblr? Why did you make one?
October 17, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I found out about tumblr through a friend of mine who always put, "Tumbling" as their status and I never understood what they meant so, being the dork I am I looked it up on Urban Dictionary. Then, I checked out the website just out of curiosity and I found fucking Narnia.

Day 66: If you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be?
October 16, 2011 (Late: 1020)

Any Victoria Secret’s model; I would love to know the feeling of undeniable beauty.

Day 65: One random fact about yourself.
October 15, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I chew my drinks.

Day 64: Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before, what do you do?
October 14, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I’d completely forget about our disagreement and focus on her life being at risk. The possibility of losing my best friend isn’t an option as long as I am alive.

Day 63: Your views upon gay marriage.
October 13, 2011 (Late: 1020)

If you’re a female and in love a female, go for it. If you’re a male and you're in love a male, go for it. Who am I to stop you? I couldn’t care less, gay’s don’t harm me in any way so why should I harm them?
GAY RIGHTS!

Day 62: Describe your best friend completely.
October 12, 2011 (Late: 1020)

^ Melissa Julia Cordova.
Her eyes are almost as dark as her curly hair but, she has the softest and friendliest smile. She's amused easily and has the personality of a child but the maturity level of a twenty year old. When she feels that someone she loves is being threatened, she'll make whatever the problem is her business and defends them to no end. She's insecure about everything; from her body to her personality. Her family and friends mean more to her than you'll ever know. She has a million different nicknames; Mells, Mel, Melli, Melita, Lissa, etc. and yet responds to every single one of them, lmao. She doesn't have much patience but, the greatness of her heart makes up for it.
I love her so much. <3

Day 61: One of your most prized possessions.
October 11, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I write stories or novels, as you could say and when I finish them I put them in a box. I don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost that blue and green box. Another prized possession of mine would have to be the bracelet my three year old niece, at the time, made me. My brother, her dad, told me that she refused to go to sleep until it was finished. Just in time for Christmas. This was three years ago and I still have it. I wear it every day.

Day 60: A Youtube video you absolutely love and describe why.
October 10, 2011 (Late: 1020)

There are multiple youtube videos that I’m absolutely infatuated with. But, the ones that come off the top of my head are any of ItsKingsleyBitch and topmodelmoya ‘s videos. Well, topmodelmoya 's old stuff like, "I Love Fat Bitches" or "Hate Bad Head."

Day 59: One person you can tell everything to.
October 9, 2011 (Late: 1020)

My best friend since kindergarten,
Melissa Julia Cordova.

Day 58: Places you want to visit and why.
October 8, 2011 (Late: 1020)

Ireland and Scotland because that’s where my grandfather was born and raised until he came to America.

Day 57: What is your definition of happiness?
October 7, 2011 (Late: 1020)

Why everyone struggles in life. We all want to just be HAPPY. Not have anything to worry about, a perfect life.

Day 56: Something you did as a child that other people remember you for?
October 6, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I used to dance to Shania Twain’s I Feel Like A Woman when I was around five or six. I’d strut around the house with an imaginary microphone or a hair brush and yell the words. Lmao. My older sister, told me that at one point I was so into the song that I banged my head on the small table in my living room while “whipping my hair back and forth.”

Day 55: A passage from a book that has touched you.

I’ve read so many books that I’m not even sure. But, I will find one.

Day 54: What is your definition of love?
October 5, 2011 (Late:1020)

When you can feel good about yourself around someone else, whether or not you’re in baggy sweats and an oversized t-shirt with a face mask on and your hair in a bun or dolled up and looking absolutely stunning. When you’re completely yourself, no pretending or feeling the need to lie about anything. When you trust that person and they make you happy. Well, that’s my definition of love at least.

Day 53: Describe your day in great detail.
October 4, 2011 (Late: 1020)

I woke up this morning at 6:04am. I jumped out of bed, walked to the bathroom, turned on the light, brushed my teeth, washed my face, came back into my room, got my straighter and make up, walked back to the bathroom, plugged in my straighter (it turns on automatically), set my make up on the side of the sink, walked back into my room, picked out a yellow tanktop and my uniform shirt, took of my PJ top, put on the tanktop (I was wearing a bra already), put on the uniform shirt, rolled my sleeves up, walked to my dresser, get a scrunchie, tied my hair up, walked back to the bathroom, put on my make up (washed my face again, primer, foundation, concealer, eyeshadow, mascara, minerals, blush), took my hair down, straightened it, decided to curl my bangs to the side, curled them to the side, walked back into my room, put on my skirt........
this could go on forever.
I dropped my sister off at her baby sitter's house, went to school, came home, took a nap, ate, did homework, and now I'm on Tumblr.

Day 52: If you didn't have an age, how old would you think you were?
October 3, 2011

Older that fifteen, that's for sure. I'm not tryna sound cocky or conceited but I am very mature for my age. Therefore I'd say about 18 - 20.

Day 51: Describe your future wedding.
October 2, 2011

I have no idea what my future wedding will be like. None. Zero. Zip. Nada. All I know is that I am not getting married in a church unless my fiance insists and I am going to have normal food. None of that fancy crap.

Day 50: Why are you doing this challenge?
October 1, 2011

I'm doing this challenge because I needed something to put on the left side of my tumblr as an about me. But, I couldn't think of anything. So, anyways, I visited a friends page and they're doing something like this. I thought it was a fabulous idea and used it.

Day 49: Are you a lover or fighter?
September 30,2011

I am definitely a lover, there is absolutely no doubt about it. lmao. But, I will fight for something I truly believe in or someone I love.

Day 48: Your life story in three words.
September 29,2011

Just keep smiling.

Day 47: Is the truth always good to hear? Why or why not?
September 28, 2011 (Late: 0929)

Hell no. The truth could break your heart, shatter it into millions of pieces. But, then again, the truth could also put your mind at ease. It could give you something to look forward to. Someone’s true feelings and thoughts revealed.

Day 46: What makes you smile?
September 27, 2011 (Late: 0929)

It doesn’t take much to make me smile. I’m amused very easily.

Day 45: When was the last time you tried something new?
September 26, 2011 (Late: 0929)

Does the new topic I’m learning in Geometry count?

Day 44: When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just do what you know is right?
September 25, 2011 (Late: 0929)

I don’t think that’s a moment that you can pin point. When you know that something or someone is wrong and this topic is running through your mind constantly, you’ll know what to do when the time is right.

Day 43: Is it possible to lie without saying a word?
September 24, 2011 (Late: 0929)

You are at a party, doing your thing. One of your male friends is at home, playing Xbox, while his girlfriend, whom you are acquainted with, is at this party. You’re surprised to see her here, none-the-less with another male. She starts kissing him. The party’s over, you go home, see your male friend the next day. If you say nothing, you are a liar because you didn’t tell the truth. If you don’t tell the truth, you’re a liar. If you tell half a truth, you’re still a liar. If you say nothing, you are a liar.

Day 42: Your best friend just died, what's your reaction?
September 23, 2011 (Late: 0929)

My immediate reaction would be to ask what happened and cry until I can't breathe. Then, I'd go ape shit.

Day 41: Write a letter to yourself stating all the things that you love about yourself.
September 22, 2011 (Late: 0929)

I'd rather not. I like my hair, smile, boobs, legs, thighs, eyes, sense of style, and personality. It's not something I keep hidden, lol.

Day 40: What are features you get complimented on a lot?
September 21, 2011 (Late: 0929)

My boobs, hair, and smile.

Day 39: Have you learned more from the good or bad? Why?
September 20, 2011 (Late: 0929)

That’s an unfair question considering that both positive and negative situations impact your life but, you learn from them either way. You learn what makes you happy, who makes you happy, what makes your life easier, etc. Then, on the other hand, you learn who you can’t trust, what makes your life miserable, what not to say around certain people, etc. It depends on the person individually. I personally learned from both equally and also took into consideration my friend’s mistakes. It could’ve been me.

Day 38: Thoughts on your generation.
September 19, 2011 (Late: 0929)

Irresponsible, horny, ignorant, judgmental, stupid, vindictive, rude, arrogant, conceited, selfish, foolish, gullible, naive, damaged, superficial, hyper, self conscious - but, overall we are young and learning who we really are. We're bound to make mistakes along the way.

Day 37: Who are you?
September 18, 2011 (Late: 0929)

I am Marie Angeline Robertson but, my name is a typo. I was supposed to be named after my biological mother. I kiss the ground that the nurse who misspelled “Maria” walks on.

Day 36: What you think about your friends.
September 17, 2011

They're too sexy for their shirts..

Day 35: Words you live by. Why do you like them?
September 16, 2011 (Late: 0917)

"Optimism is key.
If you expect the worst, the worst will happen. You are your own stress, your own anger, your own sadness, and frustration. If you let things bother you, they will so don't let them. Just be happy! Nothing in life is easy, so make the best of all of it. Don't dwell on the negatives."
^ Self explanatory.

Day 34: Your horoscope for today and whether you think it’s accurate or not.
September 15, 2011 (Late: 0917)

"An unexpected development could throw you into a tailspin, Virgo. This could involve a new person in your life or the reappearance of someone from the past. This presence could incite either personal or professional changes. These could seem like a lot to handle, but could be positive over the long term. Stay calm, deal with issues one at a time, and keep your sense of humor."
^ WOOOOOOOOOOOORD! A boy I used to mess with came out of no where and hit me up, talking real reckless and then school. All I do when I get home from school is sleep, eat, homework/study, shower, and sleep some more. Then I do it all over again.

Day 33: Someone who really hurt you.
September 14, 2011 (Late: 0917)

It doesn't hurt anymore. This person's name is never mentioned, they're dead to me.

Day 32: Would you rather marry someone who’s rich but ugly, or poor but attractive?
September 13, 2011 (Late: 0917)

How about someone who makes me happy?

Day 31: A bit about your social life outside of tumblr.

Since school has started I've had the same routine everyday. I wake up, go to school, come home from school, do whatever until 6-7pm (usually sleep), eat dinner, do homework until 1130-12am, take a shower, and go to sleep.
During the weekends? I plan on watching Heroes, sleeping, and studying.
But, I do belong to a rather large group of friends. It consists of about fifteen girls? and ten or twelve boys?

Day 30: Five favorite male and female names.
September 11, 2011 (Late: 0917)

Ah! I was actually thinking about this the other day for some reason.
* Note that they're in no particular order.
Boys:
Deyshaun, Drake, Donovan, Sammuel, and Terrell.
Girls:
Levine, Holly, Juliet, Fleur, and Mercedes.

Day 29: A date you’d love for someone to take you on.
September 10, 2011 (Late: 0917)

Nothing too fancy. I wouldn't want to be put on the spot or be forced to get dressed up to go to an expensive restaurant, that's not fun for me. So, I guess a diner, small restaurant, or even pizza place in the city. Hell, I'd go for a hot dog and then we'd just walk around the city at night. That sounds cute to me.

Day 28: Something that makes you really angry.
September 9, 2011 (Late: 0917)

Lieing and ignorance are the two things that could infuriate me to no end. I can honestly admit that if you said or did something that you believe would upset me, just tell me and get it over with. I'd be so appreciative that you had the courage to own up to your mistake rather than go behind my back about it. And well, Ignorance.. I could set that straight.

Day 27: A person you wished lived closer and why.
September 8, 2011 (Late: 0917)

My sister-in-law because then it'd be less of a hastle to get to the gym everyday.

Day 26: Five things you are looking forward to.
September 7, 2011

5. My nephew's birth in November!
4. The Blackberry Torch that is being mailed to me. I was told that I would recieve it today. GO UPS!
3. What I'm going to be doing later this morning.
2. New friends
1. School

Day 25: A friend you have lost that you're better off without and one friend you wish you had back.
September 6, 2011

This is going to sound absolutely crazy but, I talk to everyone. I get a long with everyone meaning I have no problems. Don't get me wrong, there are people who I don't agree with a lot but I always tell them what I think to their face. I don't like that whole, "talk behind their back" business. So, yeah. Anyone that's ever really contributed to my life in a significant way I still talk to.

Day 24: Your favorite ten people right now and why?
September 5, 2011

Since this question is vague I'm going to just do celebrities.
10. Weezy F Baby
His album was cool even though I only liked about four songs off of it. But, I do find myself listening to them on repeat a lot.
9. Leonardo DiCaprio
It seems that I've been only watching his movies. He's amazing though.
8. Letoya Luckett
"Because I know my worth so you can keep that drama, I don't want it anymore." <3
7. J. Cole
^ Self explanatory.
6. Hodgy Beats
I absolutely love him. OFWGKTA!
5. Big Sean
"Bitch look down, tell me what's up. Girl you talk to much, shut up. I got that mad dick, you know it always nut up and it got an attitude, no wonder why it's stuck up."
4. Beyonce
She's the Queen..
3. Drake
I've always loved drake, he's just a phenomenal artist all around. But, I do beleive he has the potential to be one of the best, he just needs to step his stuff up a little more.
2. Tyler, The Creator
He's crazy.
1. Frank Ocean
I'm not even sure how to express my love for Frank Ocean. His music is real and his voice is amazing. He's just a fabulous artist. Point blank, period.

Day 23: A month/year of your life when you were happiest and why.
September 4, 2011 (Late: 0905)

Early June of 2011 I was my happiest because my life was put together. No drama, good grades, a good boy, amazing friends.. It was amazing. Until late June, early July when everything sort of fell apart. But, hey.. you live and learn right?

Day 22: How you judge intelligence.
September 3, 2011 (Late: 0905)

How the person carries themself, their actions/mannerisms, their advice to people, vocabulary, and school.

Day 21: Everything you wish for in a significant other.
September 2, 2011 (Late: 0905)

Physically I could really care less about weight as long as they're active. Basketball, baseball, football, handball, I don't really care. Lately I've been finding the darker males attractive, hm. But, I only have two preferences. The first one is that he MUST be taller than me considering that I'm only 5'1. Second, his hair can not be longer than mine. That is all.
As far as his personality I believe that every male is different in the way they carry themself. But, things that I refuse to be involved without would have to be trust, honesty, hummor, and respect. I know it seems like a lot but, it really isn't. Mess around or not.

Day 20: What do you think makes someone beautiful?
September 1, 2011

I'm going to be brutally honest when I say this and most people will disagree about what I'm going to say but, I don't care.
I think insanely curly hair is beautiful. I think thick is beautiful. I think slim is beautiful. Every race is beautiful. Any eye color but dark brown is beautiful. Flawless is beautiful.
But, that's all superficial.
Kindness is beautiful. Intelligence, generosity, being protective, trustworthy, loyalty, being genuine, sweet, hard working, determined, respectful, having boundaries, honest, patient, and if we're talking about a female, she must carry herself like a lady. If we are speaking of a boy, he must treat females like a lady.

Day 19: Your thoughts on your family.
August 31, 2011 (Late: 0901)

Everyone except my father, sister-in-law, and one of my five aunts are hypocrites. Everyone.

Day 18: Why did you make your blog? Why do you still have it?
August 30, 2011 (Late: 0901)

I made my blog because I was browsing through a friend of mines' and it seemed very expressive. You could post what you want and not get introuble or really judged for it like you do on facebook. I still have my blog because it's a website where I can relieve any type of emotion, positive or negative.

Day 17: Your idol and why you look up to them.
August 29, 2011 (Late: 0901)

My father, Bruce, is my idol because of everything he has been through in his life and yet still manages to smile and give out unconditional love.

Day 16: Someone you trust.
August 28, 2011 (Late: 0901)

My best friend, Melissa Julia Cordova.

Day 15: Name a song that makes you cry and the reasons it does.
August 27, 2011 (Late: 0901)

Angie by The Rolling Stones
I would rather not get into why.
9/11 Remix - DJ Sammy
For obvious reasons. Just listen to it, you'll understand.

Day 14: Write about something you believe in, anything at all.
August 26, 2011

I believe that their's good in everyone. I believe that all a broken person needs is someone to trust and believe in them. If you have a teenager who deliberately makes the wrong decisions there is a reason behind it. Put some kind of faith in their hands or a piece of you for them to cherish because that's most probably what that person needs. They need someone to believe in them and trust them. But, then again that's just what I believe.

Day 13: Your favorite quote and why.
August 25, 2011 (Late: 0826)

I don't necessarily have a favorite quote because there are just too many sentimental ones I can relate to. I guess I'll just bring up the ones I can think of off the top of my head:
"Be kind, for everyone is fighting their own battle."
It's the truth. You don't know what happens behind closed doors. Their's no reason to intentionally hurt someone and make their life miserable.
"Fuck anyone who doesn't make you happy."
I'm not sure about you but, that's my goal. Not wealth, fame, or even love. I just want to be happy and no one, I repeat no one has a right to take that away.
"Her favorite songs will say more about her than her mouth ever will."
Music is my weakness because my headphones never lie..

Day 12: What was the best advice you've ever heard or have ever been given?
August 24, 2011 (Late: 0826)

The best advice I have ever heard:
"Don't lie."
^ That is the worse thing you can do to me. It's not about me finding out eventually or even my pride for that matter. It's about respect and loyalty. If you're my friend and you lie to my face, it's a wrap. No if's and's or but's.
The best advice I have ever been given:
"You're in a situation between believing and telling the difference between what he says and what he does. Fuck what he says! Words mean nothing without action."
My sister-in-law said that to me. It's self explanitory if you ask me..

Day 11: What was the worst advice you’ve ever heard or have ever been given?
August 23, 2011

The worst advice I have ever heard:
"Don't cry infront of anyone. It only shows weakness."
^ Two males said this to eachother around May of 2011. The male who was seeking advice was hurting due to a text message from his sister stating how their father was in a car accident. The male who gave the advice then said this to his "bro" as he was crying silently to himself. I can't say I ever jumped into a conversation so fast. If a person cries it is because they can't handle a certain situation any longer. Crying gives out a sense of relief and allows to express your feelings much more healthier than any other way. The whole "men don't cry" statement is bullshit as well. Boys are just as human as females.
The worst advice I was ever given:
"Don't tell him how you feel. It's only going to hurt you in the end."
^ You are right. It did hurt me in the end but, if I would've never told him how I truly felt then I'd be living my life through a what if rather than a lesson.

Day 10: What do you think when you hear the words “be yourself"?
August 22, 2011

I'm always myself no matter who I am talking to. Which side of me you see is all up to you and the conversation. "Being myself" will never be an issue so it doesn't mean much to me. But, it's good advice for someone who tries to be someone they're not. For someone who is trying to fit into a certain crowd by purchasing Coach sneakers, Polo, etc. Buy what you like, say what you feel, and keep your head on straight because a lot of people are willing to twist it around.

Day 9: A list of things that make you happy.
August 21, 2011 (Late: 0822)

Well, considering that I'm an optimistic and happy person in general there really isn't anything special about me being happy. But, I'll try my best and write 10 things that make me my happiest.
10. Parties.
9. Halloween.
8. Reading a good book.
7. Doing excellent in school.
6. Making a new friend.
5. When I wake up in the morning feeling absolutely beautiful. It's rare but, it happens.
4. When I write a new chapter or get an idea for my book.
3. Sporting Events, especially Jet games.
2. Music.
1. My family and friends.

Day 8: A list of things that make you sad.
August 20, 2011 (Late: 0822)

There are many things that could make an individual sad but, that list could go on for a while. So, I'll keep it short and stick with 10.
10. My grandfather's memory. It taunts me.
9. When my mother favors my younger sister.
8. Someone crying. It doesn't have to be someone I like or even know. Just a person.
7. Most males and their lack of respect for females.
6. Most females and their lack of respect for themselves.
5. A specific boy.
4. Any individual picking at my flaws.
3. Fighting with my father or best friend.
2. Music
1. The News

Day 7: A show or a movie that has changed you and how?
August 19, 2011 (Late: 0822)

Any show or movie that's informative in any kind of way has changed me by giving me knowledge to understand and develop my opinion on certain things. But, I guess that would all go under documentaries or biographies of some sort. An actual movie, that's on DVD, in which has changed me would have to be Stephen King's Cujo. I watched that movie about two or three years ago and ever since then I haven't looked at a St. Bernard the same way.

Day 6: Something you would like to change about yourself.
August 18, 2011

Physically? I know so many are against cosmetic/plastic surgery, trying to drill in everyone's head that they are beautiful regardless of what anyone says. But, no matter what society will play a big role in our opinions of how we look physically. So, with that being said I love my body. I really do. But, if I could change anything it would be the size of my butt. That's been an insecurity of mine for years. People say the cruelest things and for some reason they stick, jokes or not. So, yes. I'd want a bigger ass and a smaller stomach.
Emotionally? Mentally? I'd like to grow a set of balls. -_- I am too nice and I know it. Don't get me wrong, if a female is fucking be over (which is rare) I'd tell her flat out. But, if a male is doing it .. I shy up and get scared. I don't know what it is but, it's a huge problem and I need to fix it asap.

Day 5: Something you would change about the world.
August 17, 2011

These questions are very vague, lmfao. Um, If I could change something about the world magically it'd be to cure all kinds of diseases. From someone who has the common cold to someone who's suffering from severe cancer, consider yourself cured. But, for something I can actually do I can support myself by getting a job. Once the money comes in I can make monthly or weekly donations to orginizations that I feel would need it the most and at the moment, I feel that the Homeless is who need it the most.

Day 4: How do you think your life would change if you achieved your dream?
August 16, 2011

Considering that my dream is to become a published author, my life would hopefully change drastically. If the public liked my novel then I'd be well-known and my story would be read throughout the states. But, then again .. they might not.

Day 3: What do you think your reason for being here is?
August 15, 2011

Well, if by being "here" you mean my purpose in this world .. I can honestly say I'm not sure. But, if I had to take a wild guess I'd say that my reason for being here is to make someone happy and no, I'm not talking about a future spouse. To be responsible for someone's mood has a huge impact on the world because if you think about it, everything's a chain effect. If you deprive someone of their happiness they will react in a way that will affect others negatively. So, as my answer, I think my purpose is to help others. To make them realize that the world isn't going to end when they break up with their boyfriend/girlfriend or when a vicious rumor is spread. To find the good in someone, no matter how deep of a hole they dug themselves into.

Day 2: Something that’s illegal but you think it should be legal.
August 14, 2011

Prostitution is illegal in NYS which I think is absolutely bonkers considering the fact that this is MY body. If I want to have sex for money, let me. I understand the whole concept of, "the spread of diseases" but that is a risk the customer will be aware of and willing to take. On the other hand, human trafficing should be illegal. It is rape. Point blank, period.

Day 1: Hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself.
August 13, 2011

In the next 365 days I hope that my best friend and I are still as close as we are now. I don't want anything to ever break us apart from one another. I hope that my family is safe, healthy, and living. But, all in all, I would love to get into the book I'm currently trying to write. It's raw emotion and lately I just can't bare dealing with any of that, so maybe I'll be finishing it up on August 13, 2012. Who knows? Lastly, I hope to feel better about myself. I plan on becoming who I was before I started doing things that weren't like me. I plan on smiling and meaning it.
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